You Are Enough

Yesterday was the much awaited release day for Love Comes In The Mourning, and I would be lying to you if I didn’t tell you that it came with a certain high but then also a low.

For every great review or congratulations, I sat on the edge of my seat, waiting, just waiting, for the negative to come. Yes, it’s a pessimistic way to think- I know, but one thing I have learned in this writing career is you can’t teach your feelings logic.

And there is the also ever lingering doubt, did I promote this book enough? Did I edit enough? It only took four years…what’s four more, right?

Right! (Insert a head slap here.)

Many times, in the news, we often hear of celeberties abusing drugs or alcohol, even suffering from massive amounts of depression, and the tragic outcomes that end their lives. I believe on a small scale, I understand them. Granted my high’s and low’s both lead me to a bag of cookies and a coffee maker, not a bag of illegal substances, or other tragic endings, but the feelings might be a tiny bit of some of the same.

Is it human nature to always chase something? Do we all have a certain drive inside of us to never settle? Or is it just me? Or, still, do all of my efforts to be better, write a great book, give the readers something they want still come across to them as a writer who has settled? A writer who missed the typo-still after four years- or a writer who never caught it to begin with. After all, I’m only human.

And that’s when I realize, that with my last statement, I am, after all, only human, and I do believe in a Powerful and Almighty above who has you and me in his hands. And that’s when I have to throw all of these self-doubts up and say, “Not today Satan.” Because today, despite the logic of my feelings, I know I am enough. We are all each enough, and I know, despite all of these doubts in my mind, I wrote an amazing book. I hope you think so too. Much love!

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Erin Bevan

Inspiration For TANK

Inspiration strikes at the craziest times. I could be doing something I do everyday. A monotonous routine that will get all shook up simply by someone saying something. Something a little different, something I’ve never heard before, and BAM. Inspiration will hit me like a brick, and ideas will flow so fast I know I need to run to write them down. And sometimes, I’ll wish for that brick to the head but end up with nothing. Maybe feathers if I’m lucky.

And while I wish I could say I’m super creative, I’m not. I have to search the internet for inspiration daily. When it came to trying to pair a motorcycle to the characters in my new series, well, I was more lost than ever. I’ve never even been on a motorcycle, much less do I know anything at all about them. So, I did what any desperate housewife/mom/writer would do. I asked a guy. And I searched the Harley website. See, real creative, I know.

But, inspiration did come as I am a visual person and Harley has some beautiful pictures of their motorcycles. So without further ado, I will introduce you to the motorcycles of the series.

Tank’s bike: A Harley Davidson Road King in Billet Silver.

JoJo’s Bike: A Harley Davidson Street 500 in Vivid Black.

Father’s Bike: A Harley Davidson Heritage Softail in Crushed Ice Pearl and Frosted Teal Pearl.

And Steele’s bike is a bit more of my own creation, as I couldn’t find a picture of exactly what I wanted for him. This picture was taken from www.350cc.com. Steele drives and Indian Chopper with flames, but imagine red instead of orange. Fire engine red at that.

Which is your favorite? Personally, I’m partial to all of them, but there is something about Tank’s bike I like the most.

Erin Bevan

What Kind of Car Would You Be and Why?

In honor of my new book, TANK, set to release on May 17, I figured this month should be dedicated to Modes of Transportation! Seeing as how Tank rides a motorcycle, I thought, why not? And, my middle son’s nickname is…you guessed it, Tank, and his favorite thing in the world right now is fast cars! He’s only three. How do boys and their toys start so young?

Anyway, when I was in college I applied to be a RA. Me, a Resident Assistant, what a bad idea! But, somehow, miraculously, I got the job. During this process of applying to be a RA is when I got my first REAL dose of job interviewing. I had to answer some questions in front of a panel, do some other tricks like stand on my head. Okay, not really, but it sort of felt like it. But one thing I remember very vividly in the interview process was I had to answer a series of questions, essay style. And one of the questions was If you were a car, what kind would you be and why? 

Now, I’m not a car person like my son or my husband, but I didn’t have to think too much on this. If I were a car I would be a pink Jeep Wrangler. A Jeep Wrangler is an all terrain vehicle, rough and tough enough to get the job done, and pink, because well, I am a female after all. I wrote that answer ten years ago, and still, to this day, my answer stays the same.

Now, I’m mother of three, and everyday life throws something at me that by the grace of God I have been rough and touch enough to get the job done, and somehow, someway retained a little bit of my femininity. A very little bit, but still, it is there.

So my question for you is…

Erin Bevan